Solace

by Oh, that Patrick

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This is one of five songs that came as a response to my Mom's death two years ago.

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Do you really wanna know how it's going with me?
Or was that question hollow, a polite pleasantry?
Trust me, I wouldn't blame you if you don't wanna speak
To someone who proclaims to have a story so bleak.

It's been so many months by now
That they probably think, I have it figured out

Everyone I know seems to assume I found solace about it,
But the truth of the matter is I haven't and I wonder if I ever could
Everyone I know seems to assume I'll just move on without it
So I'll put on a smile for their sake but meanwhile I am really not good

Aren't you glad that you asked me? And now I get to be
That unwanted reminder that we all gotta leave.
Now we need a distraction, so we look at our phones.
Now we don't feel so anxious; we don't feel so alone.

I try, but I I just can't make sense
That she's in the past, and I'm the present tense

Everyone I know seems to assume I found solace about it,
But the truth of the matter is I haven't and I wonder if I ever could
Everyone I know seems to assume I'll just move on without it
So I'll put on a smile for their sake but meanwhile I am really not good

Dreams won't let me forget how my world used to feel
Dreams won't let me forget when I wake to what's real:
I'll never see her again.

Everyone I know seems to assume I found solace about it,
But the truth of the matter is I haven't and I wonder if I ever will
Feels like everyone seems to just assume I found peace about it
But the truth of the matter is I haven't and I wonder if I ever could
Seems like everyone seems to just assume I can live without it
So I'll put on a smile for their sake but meanwhile I am really not good

Now we're back where we started: I'm a pitiful case.
And there's nothing constructive we could possibly say.
Maybe I am just waiting for the numbness of time,
Or should I just be patient until her fate is mine.

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released November 21, 2016
Scott Robinson (drums and producing)
Patrick Tyrrell errrything else

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Oh, that Patrick Los Angeles, California

Originally from the Maryland/DC border, Patrick moved to LA in 2006. Since then, he's been writing/recording songs as a one man band. His clearest influences are Ben Folds Five and The Beatles. He loves life and fears death. Most of his songs are meant to help people cope with fear/loneliness through appreciation of life's awesomeness. He plays in an LA-based band called Nerds & Jerks. ... more

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